His Eyes vs. Mine

Life in Your Way lyrics

Last year, in a music-related post, I talked about the band Life in Your Way, and more specifically, their song This is Who I am, off of their Kingdoms album.

Well, it’s a song that sticks with me, and has recently come back in my life since I’ve started training for that 5k.

Running, much like life in general, is really hard (for me). There are endless reasons, situations, and people that make it difficult. On top of that, we as human beings, add the burden of who we think we are to that list of things that further our hardship.

It’s just really helpful, especially in a moment when you feel defeated because you are slightly overweight and extremely out of shape, when someone screams in your ear the lyrics from above. “He doesn’t see what I see…”

I am so thankful for that. Because what I often see (which I think I talked about in that post last year as well-haha) is someone who can never get it together. And it kills me.

I am so glad I have a God that looks at me with the eyes of THE creator, redeemer and sanctifier. When I really, REALLY settle on that for a moment, getting over myself seems doable.

If you are His son or daughter, the way you see yourself holds no weight against the truth of who you actually are.

Try and believe that today.

Oh, Hey 2013… Didn’t see ya there.

Guys….. how ON EARTH are we already half way through January of 2013? Why is time being so rude and rushing me through the month?

So you see, my lack of posts is not my fault. Ha.

No, but seriously, 2013, am I right? I’m excited, but already exhausted, for this new year. I don’t honestly know how super bloggers, who also happen to be moms AND who also have passions they are pursuing, blog every day. I’ve tried the suggestions and organization tips and all. But here’s the thing- I refuse to over-work myself into frenzy, which inevitably leads me down a path of emotional, mental, physical and spiritual destruction. That’s not a pretty sight- usually it looks like me in a constant state of tears and suffering from some kind of crazy illness.

If there’s any kind of New Years Resolution for me this year, it will be to pace myself.

I made such a ridiculous list of NYR’s last year, because it was the first time I’d actually written one out. Looking back at that list, it dawned on me that those kinds of projects and goals take YEARS for people to achieve, and that’s if you are super driven. I haven’t always had the “go get ’em!” attitude, so I have no idea what I was thinking. BUT- I did accomplish one resolution on that list:

Have a successful blog.

Some of you, I’m sure very boisterously, just laughed out loud. You are thinking, “Megan… c’mon, girl. Have you seen a successful blog? You don’t even have one ad on your page. There are barely any comments on your posts. You posted like 2 times last month!”

Here’s what I said to myself last January.

“If one single person tells methat they benefited from something I wrote in a blog post, then I will consider my blog a success.”

Well, that happened. In fact, it happened all year. My most difficult and painful posts, the ones that were accompanied by anger and tears and lots of talking to God, were the ones that were followed by texts from friends and family that said they “really needed to read that, so thanks.” It was especially affirming to read the rare, encouraging comment from a complete stranger.

Don’t get me wrong, the posts about hair and soap and thrift store shopping are fun, and I love doing them. They are things that I enjoy, and will continue to share them. But after doing this for a year, I can look back and see what I need to focus in on when it comes to this blog.

As you’ve read over the last 12 months, I’m afraid of  many things. But I am not afraid to share. So I’m gonna keep doing that, and hopefully you will stick around to read.

So what should you expect to see from Jude and the Walrus in 2013?

Remember how I said that I was going to pace myself? It’s true. But that’s one of a few of my goals for this year.

1) Pace myself

2) Keep pursuing God’s love for me, and in turn love my family better

3) Record and finish my first album

4) Run

There ya go. All of my posts are probably going to be stemming from one or more of these goals. And YES! I have finally started recording my first solo album (technically solo- even though lots of my friends will be participating in the process). I’ll be posting tid bits, teasers and explanations behind lyrics and so forth.

I’m planning on running a 5k the first week in March. I’m on my second week of interval training, and so far so good. We all know my hatred for this particular exercise, but I want to do this so badly. Feel free to solicit any and all encouragement.

There will be a new Jude and the Walrus blog layout coming at the end of March, including a new logo! My good friend Angie will be illustrating it for me, which I am very excited about. You can check out the portrait she did of our family if you click here.

So what about you? What are you planning to do this year? Let’s keep each other to our goals, and allow for mistakes and failures. Because, if there’s anything that 2012 taught me, it was that failure is a necessary tool that focuses your vision, helping you see what you were made to do.

The 2012 Annual Quotes Post

The post so many of you have been waiting for is finally here!

Well, I don’t know if any of you have actually been waiting for this, but I know I have several friends who have been very excited for me to finally put down in public all of the ridiculous things they have said over the year.

Quotes are awesome, especially if you don’t know them in context. That makes them all the more funny. I started taking down quotes in about 2008, after I moved away from West Palm Beach. Prior to that year, my dearest and funniest friend Genie was the one that recorded everything our friends said. It was something that I learned from her, and have been doing it ever since. It may sound stupid, but in a world full of heavy burdens, having a list of funny things people say really does the heart some good.

So here we go! The quotes I’ve recorded from 2012! Unfortunately there were many more funny things said, but I did not write them all down. (First rule of being a quote recorder- never convince yourself that you will remember what they said later. You won’t). So if you have anything to add, please do in the comments!

“It’s funny when your mouth is tiny. It reminds me of claymation.” – Me

“You have like the mullet of outfits.” – Melissa Gollery

“What are you, some kinda breakfast… carnivore?” – Daniel

“Words are important.” – Adam Crocker

“You get the gays, you get everybody.” – Jessica Carolina Ferreira

‘The blood makes it real.” – Michelle Cordero

“Titan is licking my foot in the most gentle way.” – Jonny Peace

Me: That’d be like eating 40 apples a day. Daniel: 40 apples a day keeps 40 doctors away.

“I gotta get this flash mob out.” – Anitra Carbo

“He’s like an escape artist supreme!” – Jonny Peace

“My dad’s vasectomy story is hilarious.” – Anitra Carbo

“Didn’t they put you in stirrups?” – Stacy Kilgore

“Home school people confuse me with their grades.” – Jenny Troisi

“The whole camp knows about my vagisil now.” – Anitra Carbo

“Dude, you have jeans on your arms. Are you ok?” – Geoff

“I’d rather smell the funk, than this and that.” – Benjah

“I can pick up all Kilgores.” – Jenny Troisi

“Can we shut the door so I can take my pants off?” – Liz Wilkinson

“Shallow hoes.” – Katie Rolfe- Hancock

“Watch it with the cookies.” – Lyndale

“They’re small so it didn’t hurt that bad.” – Liz Wilkinson

“I’m pretty sure it’s better to suffocate from Axe body spray than Brian’s farts.” – James Rook

“Man, they can’t even get their comeuppance right. That movie was really bad.” – Daniel (talking about She’s All That)

“My breath smells like cookies and Mexicans.” -Shawn Davis

“When I say it, I feel like we are going to turn into crazy shopping center church.” – Eb Steward

“Is this when Dallas was still wearing Chalices?” – Daniel

Shawn: Do you have temple run? Daniel: Temple Rub?

“I have a tall blonde every now and then.” – Jonny Peace

“There’s a g-string in there?” – Leanne Peace

“I love that I have a second personality that’s called Drunk Katie.” – Katie Herndon

“It is a breakfast Mecca… Just F.Y.I.” – Jonny Peace

“Babe, there is literally no one nicer than Mike Twomey.” – Me

“It was a time when there was just enough technology to where not everyone in the world was consumed with it, but enough to where we weren’t bored out of our minds.” – Daniel on the 90’s

“Umm, you need to find a Dalorian, go back in time and never say those things again.” -Austin Davis

“…Sooo many gradients!” – Daniel, Austin and Tyler

“I can’t play the imperial death march on the piano.” – Jacob

“You may be 20 miles away on a tree limb somewhere but at least you’re dry!” – Stookie

“What happened to beeps and boops?” – Max

“It had been kicked around between bell changes.” – Katie Herndon

“It’s ok… I’m not bleeding.” – Nina Heringer

“Ohhh Thomas Madison.” – Katie Herndon

“You guys don’t watch any good seal movies!” – Allison Steward

“Turn up the Womak!” – Daniel

“I cry at movies, but not at real life things. I don’t cry at school… accept for that one year.” – Katie Herndon

“Ozzy, put your tooth in your mouth.” – Daniel

“If you can fix teeth, you can fix verbs.” – Krista Gibbs

“I know that body anywhere.” – Genie Mokher Uribe

“I just cannot get a tweet out… it’s so frustrating.” – Me

“Doesn’t he put his finger so close to your face? I’ts really disturbing.” – Amber Tompkins

“Is that dried pineapple?!? Excuse me.” – Nick Roberts

Nick: You know where women hold their stress? Me: Their shoulders! Nick: You know where men hold their stress? Daniel: … their weiners?

“I have a knitting loom I’m working on.” – Logan Mears

“The less Thousand Foot Krutch is mentioned in staff meeting, the better.” – Eb Steward

“Palonius!! I know my sh**!! – Katie Herndon

“They don’t even know who Destiny’s Child is.” – Leanne Peace

“I can never be Ryan Gosling.” – Daniel

“You can’t shoot them.” – Leanne Peace on demons

“I’m like mama cat.”- Daniel

Jonny: It’s like a lava prophylactic. Everyone: What?? Jonny: It’s a thin layer of material keeping me safe.