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When Will We Get There, My Lord?

The valley…

It’s been long and painful for myself and a good deal of people around me right now. People that I love dearly. Not to sound bleak or depressing, because there are glimpses of light here and there. And I know all of life’s seasons won’t be as trying as this one.

But, damn.

A few weeks ago, I wrote a poem during perhaps my biggest crisis of faith thus far. One day, I’ll be able (and allowed) to share so much more with whoever reads these things, but for now… for now, a glimpse into the desperate recesses of my heart.

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A thousand times and then some more, my soul gives out and You carry it across these deserts and through scorched valleys. 

When will we come to water, my Lord?

These glimpses feel like mirages dried up like the dust, and just as the dust forms spinning cones, so my head is a storm. And when the storm comes through, it levels my heart and all of it’s towers. I have more than one  tower of Babel, my Lord. But of course, you know it to be so. 

Sure, I’ve asked You to make it new, but never I imagined it to be such an occasion as this. What a devastation to the actual soul that sits in my bones somewhere between my spirit and my flesh. 

This is far too much to bare, and just like my towers, You know this to be true as well. Which is why You stand waiting for the candle’s flame to die out. For You scoop up the ashes, as black and lifeless as they are, and You carry them with your hands across the land of death and into a new place, a place I’ve not been before. 

When will we get there, my Lord?

I Was Made To…

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This is my dearest friend, Genie Uribe. I say dearest, because we’ve known each other since birth, and I simply cannot imagine a season in my future that she will not be a crucial part of. Anyways, she posted this song on youtube yesterday.

Whether you like the song or not, whether you enjoy female vocals or not, whether you are a Christian or not… the girl can freakin’ sing. That’s not something you can deny Genie, and if you try, you’ll just end up looking like a fool…

…Because Genie was made to sing.

I believe we were all created to point to, make famous of and glorify the one Who created us. And from there, each one of us was created to do one, or two or twenty specific things that accomplish that.

I’ve been thinking about what it means to be a witness of Jesus Christ in every day life. To be a witness of someone…. you would have to have witnessed something that they’ve done. Haha. So what is it that I have witnessed Christ do/is doing in my own little broken world, and how he is restoring it? How is he nudging me to point to, make famous of and glorify Him?

Well, there are many things I’ve seen Him do. But to stay in the same vein of the topic at hand, He has put people in my path who do what they were made to do. I have friends who sing, paint, talk about comics, record music, read poetry, teach, protect, make whiskey, design, give great hair cuts, tell stories, listen, organize, draw, paint nails artistically, counsel, make people laugh, write children’s books and sci-fi novels, rollerskate (competitively), take pictures, pay attention to the elderly, answer 911 calls, make guitars, exercise (professionally), play with kids, create delicious lattes, make movies, hang with teenagers, build legos, work at orphanages, make soap… and the list could go on. Almost everyone around me, just by living well, restores my soul and pushes me to do the things I was created to do. And while I’m nervous to say that that’s Jesus working in my life (because the internet is scary)…

That’s what I believe.

What were you made to do?

October always love a Change.

Every year around the beginning of October, when it’s time to go to Catalyst, Daniel or I (or both of us at the same time) ends up with a new job situation. This year it’s my turn.

I know I haven’t been hanging out in this blog for a while (4 months actually), and there’s been so much going on. It was quite a summer… definitely one for the books.

A series of small events led me to make a silly video, and that silly video and the people who got behind it raised us enough money to start a business based around a product I created called Beard Sauce. I also started working at Starbucks this past June, and the call to community living through my church got louder this summer as well.

It’s been nuts. Like 4-hours-of-sleep-a-night nuts. It’s been the most living I’ve ever done. Like real, going beyond all the doubts and fears I’ve always had, shouting out of freedom and sleeping when your dead kinda living. I’ve had some pretty painful downtimes as well, but those were every bit a part of the living.

So whats next for me, huh?

Well, some of you will be happy to hear that I will have more time to devote to Jude and the Walrus again, as today was my last day serving coffee at Starbucks. My full time job will basically be Beard Sauce, finishing my album and hanging out with the people that are placed in my life. I’m gonna need a platform to write about it all as it happens, and this blog is where that will take place.

I know I’m not a terribly consistent person. I just like to do EVERYTHING, but I’m learning how to hone in on a few things at a time and finish stuff with excellence.

This blog isn’t finished yet, though. I feel like we’ve got years to cultivate this bad boy.